Last week, Soleil succumbed to her maladies. With Dr. Wright's help, we assisted her in crossing the rainbow bridge. Dr Wright located a very large growth on her stomach. He reassured us that we were making the right decision. For a year and half, I had administered her meds daily. I would always get the best kisses from her on my chin. She was the sweetest little girl ferret you could ever meet. The morning of the procedure, I was once again able to get kisses one last time. That moment will always be in my memory. I think she knew it would be the last time.
She was preceded in death by her brother Tasselhoff nearly one year prior. The loss of Tass was difficult, and now lossing Soleil is sitting heavily on my heart.
The other day, I recieved her remains and now she sits with Tass on my desk by a picture of both of them and some of their favorite toys. It is a special place. I'm able to give their container kisses but it just isnt the same. I miss them very much.
Pierre and Flint, my other 2 ferrets seem to be doing ok with the loss of their sister. They do seem to go look for her in her normal hiding places. They have also started giving kisses in earnest. I do believe they are trying to make me feel better showing that they care too.
Today is father's day. I don't have children my friends do. My children are covered in fur and have 4 little legs. Today is going to be especially hard because I wont have 2 of my babies. I won't neglect Pierre or Flint and I'm very appreciative of their love. I just miss Tass and Soso.
Everyday, I would sing Soleil Soleil Soleil, Come out and Play Today Soleil, to the tune of Ole' Ole' Ole'. The other day at gaming, the group i was with broke into Ole' and it took everything I had to not burst into tears.
I miss you Soleil so very much. You were daddies little girl. my little sosobutt...
I miss you Tasselhoff, You were a paragon of ferretom. my little fatbutt...
I love you both and i'm sorry I wasn't able to fix you. I just hope you had a good life and I hope you knew just how much you are loved.